Numerous years back, in 1977 I had a public broadcast in 수동딜도. This was 5 years before I opened the magical entryway. It was a 3 hour show each Friday morning and I was the most well known individual every week on the radio. Essentially on the grounds that individuals adored my English intonation, and I understand now, that individuals were influenced by my energy and still, at the end of the day, as one lady had said to me, you are so soothing on the radio! I needed to have a subject for my show, and I had heard a bit of music which I simply cherished, it was called Billitus, and I was not to realize it was the music from a film about lesbians! I simply cherished the music. This bit of music played my show in and played it out. At some point, I had a letter from a lady who revealed to me she adored my show and couldn’t want anything more than to meet me. Her name was Elizabeth and she was hitched with two youngsters. I masterminded to meet her a couple of days after the letter showed up. (There was no email then to the extent I review) We met around, had a tasty lunch and talked a lot. Elizabeth appeared to be so pleasant and welcomed me back to her home to see photograph’s of her kids and talk further. I came honestly.
During my visit to her home, she made some tea for me and took a seat at my feet. There she started to reveal to me the amount she cherished me, how she adored my show and needed to be with me. I didn’t have a clue what to do, on the grounds that I unquestionably didn’t feel a similar way. I likewise felt humiliated, profoundly humiliated. I was hitched with kids myself, I was disturbed in my marriage, but rather the idea of being with another lady was YUK!! I was unable to escape the house sufficiently snappy. She had given me a book by Karlil Gibran over our lunch, called “The Prophet” obviously I had referenced on air I cherished Gibran’s composition, and didn’t have a book. I gave up the book in my push to take off from the house as fast as Possible. At the point when I returned home, I felt debilitated, I likewise felt “grimy” as though I had been attacked. Elizabeth attempted to get in touch with me at the radio broadcast by telephone, yet I would not accept her calls. She sent the Karlil Gibran book via mail, with a decent card; I tossed it in the container. I can’t really accept that I did it now, however at the time I was so confounded and humiliated. Maybe the book was a piece of what had occurred. I changed the music additionally in the show to something very extraordinary. I shut the experience totally crazy and moved on, moving house and zone a couple of years after the fact.
After my involvement in Elizabeth, numerous years passed without my confronting the issue once more. Interim the Aids issue turned out to be large, and afterward wound down off. It was thought of on the off chance that you were gay as these connections were known as, that you would get Aids. Nonetheless, I was moving on, encountering a downturn where I was a significant player, and finding transcendentalism. I met many gay individuals during this time, yet kept outwardly of their energy, as I was so terrified what had occurred previously, would happen once more. At the point when I turned into a visionary peruser I had a couple of customers who were gay and the energy I diverted for them was so loaded up with affection and seeing, yet at the same time myself, I had gigantic trouble in getting them. At the point when Maitreya entered my life, one of the main things he started encouraging me was love for all humankind regardless of who. I had consistently had love in my heart for everybody, except this issue of gay individuals was a major square for me to get by.